My dad is doing better every day. He's in therapy five times a day, and I was able to see firsthand how hard he is working last week. I know he's better today than he was a few weeks ago, but it's still very difficult for this 35 year-old to see her daddy in the condition he's in. It just is.
I cry often, out-of-the-blue and at weird moments, because I just miss him. My sweet husband has been very supportive, though sometimes he doesn't understand the tears. Well, ok, most of the time he doesn't understand.
Friday night he and I went on a much-needed date, and I finally satisfied my craving for boiled crawfish. They were sooooo good, and I will be going back soon. Then we went to the outlet mall and landed a 40% off sale at Gap. I got lots of goodies, which I don't get to do often. And to end the evening off on a wonderful note, I decided to show him how much I loved my iTrip and played him two songs that made me sob harder than I had in months.
One was this song by Taylor Swift. She wrote it for her mom, and every time I hear it I weep. Did I mention that Friday was also the day before my daughter's high school graduation? Yeah.
I think my exact words when plugging in my iphone were, "Let's cry, shall we?"
Then I played this song by Paul Simon. My dad bought me his greatest hits cd a few years ago specifically for that song, and considering what's going on, that song pushed me directly into the ugly-nobodyshouldeverseemelikethis cry.
The line from the song that sent me over the edge.... "As long as one and one make two, there will never be a father love his daughter more than I love you."
One day he'll be able to say those words to me again.
Saturday was my daughter's high school graduation, party at my SIL and BIL's restaurant, and project graduation. That's for a whole other post.
Right now I'm going to finish my glass of wine on the deck and pray that my 16 year-old that's learning to drive comes home from the gas station safely.
Have a great night!