Fourth time's a charm

I have started writing three different blogs and have deleted each one because they are all so scattered. Let's see if this one sticks.

Lately I have been been doing lots of thinking about this whole "letting your children go" thing, and I will just say that it's not any fun.

I realize my daughter is growing up. I realize that she's 17 and will probably be going off to college in a year, and she really needs to experience some things on her own here before she goes away.

But it's just so stinkin' hard to do! (Yes, I'd like some cheese with my whine, thank you.)

I tried not texting her too much on Prom night. Really, I tried, but apparently I wasn't successful, because she eventually texted me back and said, "Mom, I will be fine. I love you."
Ugh. Why does she have to be so smart?

And you'd think I'd be worrying about her doing things she shouldn't be doing, but really I was worrying about her safety. She rode to the prom with her date and another couple- a boy I had never met before. He was a big 'ol football player, but I didn't have any qualms about asking him if he was a good driver and if he was planning on being a crazy person on the roads that night.

(And in my own defense, between the school and dinner and prom it was a 118 mile trip. So there.)

Silly, I know, but that night was really hard for me.

She is growing up, though, and I have to say that she is an amazing young woman. She is very sweet and extremely smart and though she still acts like a teenager sometimes, she really has made some wise decisions in her young life.

She still comes home every day and tells me about her day. We watch TV together and laugh a lot and while I was typing this she came in here to tell me about "her man Kinsler" and how well he was playing tonight.

I guess it's just really hitting me that I really need to let go. She belonged to the Lord first and will always be His child. I'm just here to watch over for a while.

And how very blessed I am to have had this opportunity.

Originally posted April 2009 @ Mom in Transition